I am a genderqueer, which means I bend all typical gender rules.
Intro
I now consider myself transgendered, though I haven't always. I am out to almost everyone that knows me as of August 2003. The first time I came out as Transgendered was November 12th 2002 so I've been living as a boy for almost two years. I had realized that I feel like a boy inside (and wished I was male on the outside.) I also realized that I had always felt this way, just not consciously. My whole life I tried to be like a boy, pretend I was a boy, play with the boys, do boy things, and all that. I never ever liked being a girl or a female, but I never knew there was anything I could do about it until I got into the queer community as a teenager. I have since made a big shift in my gender identity, but I'm still debating how much change I want to make to my sex identity. Some of the world sees me as a boy and as male, and I want it that way. I have accomplished part of the first half the of the battle - changing the way the world sees me - now I'm also working on changing my body to please the most important person in my transition: me.
I came out to my mum on November 14th, 2003 telling her that I am transgendered. I have an amazing support system of friends (most of my friends aren't trans.) I'm very lucky to have their unconditional love and support. Many were friends of mine before my transition, so it's especially wonderful having that level of support and love in my life.
My wake up call
I didn't know that I wanted to live as a boy until I was 13 years old. When it finally crossed my mind in ocotber 2002, I automatically knew that it was what I needed to do. Something had clicked. Finally everything in my life started to make sense and feel real to me. I don't know what did it, what put that thought in my head, but whatever it was it was the right time. At 12 I realized I was attracted to girls. At 12 1/2 I realized I was not very attracted to guys. Finally, at 13, I realized that I hated everything about me, about being a girl, and that I needed to change me into someone I can love and accept. I have some barriers that I can not break, so I have to climb over them one by one. Lucky for me, I have some amazing people helping me at every step along the way.
Me as a boi.
I have come a long ways in my transition since the first time I came out in 2002. I have started dressing in all male clothing, and various other things. I have started to come out at my high school and most of my friends at school know me as Liam. A few of my teachers know, but not all of them know. I am still working on telling them.
But am I Transsexual?
This part I will update when I have insight on it.